first off – a quick apology. i know it may seem silly, but i can’t help but apologize for dumping a ton of my personal baggage onto this blog. i’ve been so desensitized to heavy topics like this because of my own personal experiences, and i hope me mentioning the things i did didn’t cause anybody any distress. just wanted to get that out of the way since it did worry me a bit lol
as of today, i’ve finally started therapy. through one session alone i feel like i’ve learned a lot more about myself and my past, which is definitely a step in the right direction. my long term projects are still very much on hold – don’t expect anything huge from me – but i’m hopeful that this will help me turn my life around. i’ve spent so long trying to fix others’ problems that i failed to realize how deeply i had been hurting all these years and how much i’ve needed support. maybe i just thought it’d be selfish of me or something? idk. either way, i’m just so glad i’m doing this. i may take occasional breaks from social media to better my mental health – so if i go a little while without posting, then that’ll likely be why.
hopefully over these next few months you all can see a version of me that isn’t as cynical – because i feel like a few of my drawings here and there have Definitely conveyed the side of me that’s been fueled by my own insecurities and self-hatred and i do Not like that. i’ll try my absolute best to actually make these changes, and heed the proper advice. i couldn’t be happier that i’m finally taking this step. all we can do now is just see how it all goes i suppose!